another thing...I do NOT check this page for mistakes. If I go over this page for mistakes it takes away from the rambling bit. If you see "Haev" not "Have" you know what its suppose to be, so don't whine and complain to me about mistakes. I'll just ask "Do you want some cheese with that whine?"

Blackie's Farewell Ramble (12/24/00 ...xmas eve)

"And he did rise from the grave to send his final message to all those who would hear it. Having sent his message he could return to the land of the dead and to his eternal slumber."

Its interesting that on the anniversary of the eve of the (alledged) birth of Christ we shall see the last of Blackie Del Rio.

    Anyways, here I am, Blackie Del Rio. Returned to tell you people one more time that I am dead and gone. Rio lives on while I have gone to way of the Dodo. He cast me aside when he saw my true colours. The separation isn't noticed by some of the lesser beings out there. Calling him Blackie is like calling the pope an atheist. It just doesn't seem right. Though those people who hang on to the past are doomed to repeat it. If I have to return again I will be vengeful and no one shall be blamed for the destruction I left in my wake except those who are my victims. Life means nothing when you have nothing to lose. Be careful what you bring upon yourselves...you may regret waking certain beasts.

...HATE IS REALITY... -- "World of Shit"  by Nailbomb. Ah its nice to hear some old school tunes.

    Rio saw that he is part of a generation of people who are doomed and useless in terms of the status-quo. Those that are forever cripple in the eyes of their superiors. He didn't care to tear down their ivory towers, but allow their miserable existance. I would never allow those swinefuckers to live. Most people are blind to his new ways and they cannot see that I have been cast down into the darkness that I was spawned from. You blind people are what I need....your ignorance and disrespect shall breed a new way. Your ignorance will lead you to believe that I am still alive and if enough disrespect fills the world I will come back stronger than ever. Many places are thriving with ignorance and disrespect now, such as America and Egypt.

    My time is fading fast, I shall not put up with those guttersnipes using my name when I am not in your world. If I hear it again I will lash out and strike down the fools who dare use it. Blackie is what you fear.

Editor's note:
    Upon completion of the text above the subject fell over, completely unaware of what happened, and the lights seemed to brighten. It was as if a darkness had been lifted from the subject.

Subjects note:
    Well, its xmas eve....11:50pm. I've got my daggers and a loaded handgun waiting for that fat bastard who trespasses every year and leaves gifts. Damnit, why can't he just use the post office like everyone else. Heheh. The second that fucker goes for the cyanide laced cookies and the sour milk I'm shooting him in his jolly fat ass. Seriously though, for all of the friends, who I think are worthy of this, merry christmas and happy new years. Most of which have returned or gone home for the holidays. A few of the guys I have not had the chance of seeing since they returned, but we'll be getting together the week sometime i'm sure. They are back from Ottawa, Sin Johns, Halifax, etc. Luckily we have gotten rid of some of the swine and bottomfeeders, and this place is better because of it. Now now, those of you who think I might be talking about you, just think...would I have any reason to dislike you? If not, then you're one of the friends I wished a merry xmas to....if you're not...then go fuck yourself and I hope you get hit by a truck because you're breathing our fucking air! Granted those people deserve what they get, because they are not part of the solution, they are part of the problem. Why is Nailbomb playing? Who was playing that?
    Well....Its offically Christmas Day ....in this time zone anyways... But Christmas is just another day isn't it? And we never really get who err....WHAT we want do we?

Also, I have already opened a gift of mine. Two really....one was delivered to me 10 days ago now (seeing its the 25th now) and I must say I was pleasantly pleased to see 4 cases of coke waiting for me. Gulp...ahhh. I told her I'd have it open shortly after midnight. heh. The second pre-xmas gift was delivered from Ontario. HST's lastest offering: "Fear and Loathing in America" I am already in love with this book. Every page I read I skim over again looking for something I might have missed.

Looking forward to New Years and a bottle of Southern Comfort,
Rio (he who is free of the darkness)

p.s. This might be the last ramble for Rio also, the demons are fleeing and taking their creative juices with them.

Almost back to class ramble 9/4/00 (1:59am) (long...)

  Well damn...it seems like last summer now. Getting close to that time when students are returning to class and the like. It's also the same time that I have a little motivation to do something with this webpage. All summer...nothing. Plenty of time to waste, late nights of course, and never did squat. Now that I'll be back in class come Wednesday, I am working on it again.
  Either way... Something became clear the other day. For the week or so some friends were back in town, we got drunk a few times and had a hell of a time, best week of the summer by far. It seemed that most other weekends were just surviving, nothing interesting happened. But the guys got back it was all good times. Now that they have left again, its a descent into monotomy. I can feel the maggots moving in to eat my brain.
  One good thing has happened since their departure, I have worked on "Fear and Loathing In C.B." a little. I know how it went. I just have to put it to words.

Goddamn...If I see anymore shit by that white rapper Eminem (sp?) i'll vomit. That Slim Shady garbage is making me sick. I hear it so much I feel like trashing every radio I come across. Granted those wanna be black people probably would say the same if I played Slipknot, Soulfly, Pennywise, Papa Roach or Kyuss for them.

That reminds me...a little Slipknot praise if you will.... Slipknot is one amazing band. None of this "I'm in it for the teenage chicks and the money" shit (refer to Limp Bizkit). Fred Durst of Limp Bizkit said this of Slipknot "All Slipknot's fans are ugly fat kids." I believe it was the lead singer for Slipknot that replied "Well, if we ever see Fred Durst somewhere we'll have to kill him." I personally wouldn't miss him. I guess Fred D. wants those young teenage woman all to himself, damn paedophile. Guess thats why he had all those young female teenagers in the "nookie" video.

Anyways enough of Fred Kid Lover...I meant to give you a sample of some Slipknot lyrics. Here goes:
This is form the song "Wait and Bleed"

Now many people will look at this and just "tsk tsk". Fuck them close minded swine. The key to this lies in "Manchuian Candidate". Why? Because.... You want more? Fine... "The Manchurian Candidate" is a movie from 1962. By the way...Manchu is a region in NE China. In the movie a platoon of soliders are brainwashed by a chinese communist hypnotist. Then those that survived go back to the USA to live a "normal" life. Only to have their programming kick in at a certain time to assassinate key figures. Now, read the lyrics to the song again. After knowing what those key words refer to you realize the song isn't about the author wanting to kill someone. I know a lot of people think that.

Anyways I could go on about Slipknot forever, but I need to sleep sometime this month.

Next is God. Yes God. Do I believe in God? Of course not. Why? here goes...

People talk about all thats wrong with the world today. Crimes, drugs, earthquakes, etc. What is the biggest killer in history? No not that Black Death plague. No not drugs. What you ask? GOD is the biggest killer. don't believe me? think about it...All the bloodiest wars have been fought about religion. Read some history books. Regardless who's name you tag on "God" he or she is a big source of death (assuming you believe that bullshit) Here is how the wars might as well go:

Zealot A: "Do you believe in God?"
Zealot B: "No."
BANG Zealot B is dead.
Zealot A: "Do you believe in God?"
Zealot C: "Yes"
Zealot A: "Hmm...Do you believe in my God?"
Zealot C: "No."
BANG Zealot C is dead.

And don't give me shit about sanctity of life and how life is sacred. That is just human made bullshit. If everything has a right to life then we should take a good look at ourselves. It's all due to "Self Interest" Ever hear a dead person talk about sanctity of life? No..why? Because they are DEAD! It's a complete bias bullshit story. If everything that ever lived is dead and everything alive is going to die, why then is life so sacred? We kill flies, bugs, spiders, cancer cells (or try sometimes), and lots of other things without a second thought. Why then are we much more important than flies. Well flies can fly, we can't.

I'm just pissed with these whiny cretins that are bitch about everything. "Save the whales, save the snails, save the trees, save the fleas."

You know...I had a totally different reason for starting this ramble...gawd what was it. AH. I'm sick of being blamed for everything because I am a white male from ages 19-34. Not always blamed directly but my generation and kind are blamed. Being a white male is enough to get you blacklisted by any number of feminist groups, minority groups, etc etc. Just because you have certain gentials and a certain colour of skin.
Today I read something someone wrote a while back. She said that she's given up on the male species. Only jerks would hit on her and the like. Isn't that the shit though? You always see the nice woman with the big assholes. The nice guys are with big bitches. I'm not saying everyone is like it, but damn, its a HIGH percentage and as some song says "only stupid people are breeding." Too true. Also, I know several females that have said that the reason they are still with their other half is because they probably wouldn't do any better. Fuck isn't that dumb. Maybe I'd be the same if I was attached to someone for a long time, forget what its like to be free of things to tie you down.

oh yeah...ramble....I kinda wandered off...its now 3:22am, I don't know when I wandered off to watch the rest of "Cool Hand Luke" ...great flick. Guess i'm getting old, forgot that I was writing up a ramble. Well fuck it, I am out of my rambling state so I'll just wrap it up by saying that anyone who is looking for me the fall at the college...check the bar. Southern Comfort and Coke is another addiction of mine. Hmm, maybe i'll add that to the addictions page :)

Rio (He who stalks the night)
 

The Victory Ramble 8/7/00 (1:53am)

first off...
Sir Alec Guinness died Saturday. Mostly known for his role of master Jedi Obi-Wan Kenobi, Guinness was well known for many other films such as: Dr. Zhivago, Great Expectations, Oliver Twist, A Passage to India, The Bridge on the River Kwai, and Lawrence of Arabia. Something I found really amazing was that in the film "Kind Hearts and Coronets" Guinness played 8 parts, including 1 woman. Eddie Murphy did 5 In "The Klumps" but with today's makeup and effects its not a big deal...not as big as playing 8 roles in a movie. Guiness...a class act...the only real Obi-Wan was 86.

Well shit....its August already. What happened to the summer? Guess I spent one too many days drunk or sleeping in. Seemed like a few days or a week ago I was slugging away at my Independent Project (don't know why I capitalized that...) guess I took all summer to recover..or just most of it. heh. I had shut off most contact with the outside world to write that bitch. Turned off the phone's ringer, turned down the answering machine, accepted no calls on the other line, etc. etc. Hell, I even got away from the entertainment center here. The prof's all said that a 20 page paper would be fine, mine ended up being 37 I believe. Needless to say I made a good chunk of cash on the cans of coke that I recycled after it was all over.

There are too many God forsaken bottomfeeders out there...just read a friends thoughts about a certain squaw....and I think another friend of mine had the right idea. The HHS. Human Hunting Season. If you can validate the reason for shooting and killing someone then damnit it should be allowed to hunt them down and 'remove' them. Now for you girl scout pacifist types...we won't just kill them without good reason. Get twenty or fifty valid complaints from people, like collecting names for a petition, and present them to the local wildlife officer(s) and get your license to kill. Hell, you can dress up like James Bond and talking like Sean Connery if you like. You couldn't get a license to hunt someone just because they called you a mothefucker or baglicker. Nothing so childish.

Oh wait...thats why most wars start. Males fear that someone has a larger dick than they have.
Idiot A: "What? They have bigger dicks? BOMB THEM!!"
Idiot B: "Yes sir, President Clinton."
Idiot C: "Get them <insert foreigners here> bastards."

I just wrote the Sir Alec Guinness thing...so I lost my thoughts.

<insert minutes of brain straining>

Fuck I don't know what I was going to ramble about so here's a clip from an email I wrote to some people. Its on this whole Napster/RIAA bullshit. People don't realize that there are numerous ways to get mp3s online without using Napster. Just Napster made it easier to find those mp3s, so even the mindless masses could get their favorite music. So here's the email rant...

<begin email clip>
I have to laugh at dr dre suing napster. They idiot has the gall to sue napster
after ripping off all kinds of sounds, and only getting sued by God Lucas. Makes
you wonder who is the real 'master of puppets' is. Those greedy suits who treat
metallica and dre as icons because they are too drunk or stoned to know any
better.

Suit: "Here James, here's some more beer."
James: "BEER GOOOOOOOOD, THINKING BAAADD!!"
Suit: "Kirk those bottles of cum are for you and Lars."
Kirk and Lars: "CUM GOOOOOOOOD"
Suit: "Jason, just shut up and snarl or something"
Jason: "Grrrr"
Suit: "Excellent. Hello, Swiss bank?......"

The music industry just views the consumer as the mindless masses, granted a lot
of people are. They get caught up in the bands of the week (or perhaps month)
then they are brainwashed into thinking "MUST BUY MORE ALBUMS!!"

News guy: "This week Metallica released their 73rd album
"Re-re-re-re-pre-post-pre-re-post-S&M." Their classic tunes like The Memory
Remains...Still, Mama Said Again, and The Unforgiven 17" reports are that they
expect to sell a million copies by tomorrow...thanks to be god for those dumb
fans who are willing to buy shit a pig would turn away from.
Fans: "HOLY SHIT!!! ANOTHER METALLICA ALBUM TO GO WITH THE ONE I GOT LAST
WEEK!!! GREAT!!"

Big record companies have been screwing musicians and artists for years Why
didn't congress ever act in their behalf? And why now? Could it be that big
money talks and small artists walk?
<end email clip>

p.s. I saw a concert this weekend...in those sober minutes...and saw Dr Dre with Snoop Dog and the white rapper Enema (or whatever his name is) and every seconds word out of their mouths was fuck, motherfuckers, fuckers, fucking, etc etc. And you're trying to prove to me that these guys are bright enough to think about suing some company? Yeah right. They are probably high 24-7 and their crooks, err lawyers, whispered in their ears "we can sue them and get you a few thousand dollars" thinking to pocket the rest. Dumb dumb dumb...

Anyways...fuck metallica (or Moneyica as I now call them), fuck dr. dre, fuck the RIAA. Fuck them all in the face with a sledge hammer. Greedy swine know people are going to copy off their cds regardless if napster is there or not. How naive can these people be? Would you buy a cd for maybe 4 or 5 good songs when it costs over $20. If you are, you're just another of the blind mindless sheep. If its worth that $20+ by all means buy the cd, but in my opinion, the music industry is becoming very stale. Very few bands perk my interest lately. Of all my cds I can't find many that I'd buy again if I had to. The only ones I can say i'd buy again are the classical music ones, the Bad Religion ones, and the...thats maybe it.

Anyways I don't need to justify this...i'm sure a lot of people feel the same...especially students.
Another long rambling over with...

Not Quite a Rambling 7/20/00 (3:41pm)

Wow...12 hours ago I wrote that other one I don't remember....

anyways this ain't a ramble...just a little thing for you to read and think over before I give away what it all means...

This is from a tribe called the Nacirema:

     The Nacirema have an almost pathological horror of and
     fascination with the mouth, the condition of which is
     believed to have a supernatural influence on all social
     relationships. Were it not for the rituals of the
     mouth, they believe that their teeth would fall out,
     their gums bleed and their lovers reject them... The
     daily body ritual performed by everyone includes a
     mouth rite... which strikes the uninitiated stranger as
     revolting.... The ritual consists of inserting a small
     bundle of hog hairs into the mouth along with certain
     magical powders and then moving the bundle in a highly
     formalized series of gestures. In addition to the
     private mouth rite, the people seek out a holy mouth-
     man once or twice a year. These practitioners have an
     impressive set of paraphernalia, consisting of a
     variety of augers, awls, probes and prods.  The use of
     these objects in the exorcism of the evils of the mouth
     involves almost unbelievable ritual torture of the
     client (Miner, 1956: 506).

Now...Read it again. ....waiting....Done? good.. Now stop being a mindless follower and think for yourself for a moment....read the title backwards..and think. Read the thing again. Who can the holy mouth man be? heheh...Thanks go to Dr Emke for this piece.

Rambling for 7/20/00 (3:42am)

Fear And Loathing In C.B.

Something has come to me. While reading Hunter S Thompson's book "The Proud Highway" I read the following passage:

"he took what was left of his cash and sat by himself on a stool ... sullenly nursing his drinks as he had the night before, and putting his change in the juke box, which can be a very expensive machine for those who need steady noise to keep from thinking."

I read this passage over many time, each time coming to the same conclusion...I am that man. Luckily I don't have to pump coins into some machine for a constant stream of music, things have improved since '64, I can just turn on the tv, toss in a movie, or play some cds or mp3s. I have the tv on a lot just for, as I call it, "background noise". Why? I get home at night and put in a movie I have seen 10,000 times just to drown out my inner voices. Primal, insane, lustful, savage voices. Many people can be characterized by the typical exterior with a dark secret interior, secrets from their past, hidden deep in the dark. I am not quite the opposite. I am the dark interior on the surface. Then inside I have the typical good person interior, which few people know, but deeper within is the primal savage. When I am unoccupied my mind will wander back to that savage being. Where the desire to brutally kill someone or to destroy something is just as normal as a person's desire to sleep in on sundays or desire to have fun.

We all have things that we want to repress, dark secrets hidden deep within our memories. I refrain from using the term "souls" because I am being serious here and a reference to a "soul" will make this purely fictional.

And to those people that look at this rambling and think "What's wrong with Blackie?", "This guy is sick", or "that fucked up bastard." follow these instructions...take your head out of your ass, wipe the shit from your eyes, and look in a mirror...look deep, you might be shocked what you see. And for you sick motherfuckers...take off your daughters girl scout uniform, those black high heels, and that black makeup. What would your wife think? Anyone who wants to call me sick should look in a goddamn mirror or at their neighbors and the like before passing judgement on me.

Back to what I started at...Television is the greatest mind dulling object I can think of. Perhaps even more so than some drugs. The only reason drugs are illegal, well one of the main reasons, is that governments can't control its sale. If they could they would legalize it like they legalized alcohol or tobacco. Look at how many movie stars, television stars, political idiots, and many more 'famous' people are caught with drugs...and these people are the dumb ones. Hell, if Billy Boy Clinton can get away with smoking up and having that ugly squaw Monica suck the presidential staff anything is possible. What does a little dope lead to, a bunch of guys standing around a fire at a cabin trying to debate the world problems. Granted the hardcore shit like crack and cocaine should probably be left for the junkies, let them kill themselves. You must have heard of natural selection. Let the moronic kill themselves off.

Hmm...once again I have wandered. As I was trying to say, what is this complusion with noise we all have? I was blessed with almost a week of peace and quiet at my house recently. What happened the first or second day of it? I was nearly talking to myself. I was leaving televisions on, playing music, just to have some noise in the house. Living in this new decade, if not millenium, everything involves noise. The rural life has died a miserable death to the urban life. I haven't "got away" from the city in ages, perhaps this is what I need. An exodus to the simplier life, where I can face the savage, primal inner self and control it, if not destroy it. Isn't that what we all need...time to relax and not be hounded by the noise of urban life, and not go insane with the peace and serenity? We've become to engrossed in the modern life that we have forgotten what we tossed aside for this fast food, instant coffee world? We cling to this modern high paced life like a newborn grasping at a nipple. Fearing that if we lose our tentative grip on the modern high tech world we'll fall to the place we loathe so much. That place where we didn't have drive thrus, where mail was sent with a stamp, where families interacted instead of being placated with their own mind dumbing devices. I believe full cable here now runs to almost 70 channels...and is there anything good on there? No. With one possible exception being The Discovery Channel, but how often do they have new informative shows on there. When I had the D.C. channel here, I found myself watching the same shows over and over. And what about people with Satelittes? How much porno and stupid movies can you watch? A station for every team in hockey, baseball and basketball is a bit much. 6 golf channels is a bit much also...sorry heather but golf ISN'T that stimulating, perhaps if they had landmines placed on the course, but not as it is now....Get a satelite dish with 800+ channels, so you can mindlessly thumb through channels for an hour...then once you go through them all. you realize there is some new shows on 50% of them, so you start to "surf" again. Mindless fucking brain dead sheep. I'm surprised that people's thumbs don't fall off.

And I end my ramble with this...Do we really need 1 hour photo shops?? Holy fucking guttersnipes. Are we that brainless that we can't remember taking/posing for a picture an hour ago, so we rush off to these photo shops to get the pictures back ASAP. GET SOME FUCKING HELP!!! Anyone who uses those things are fucking hopeless idiots.

Pray for a sane tomorrow....though as we all know Tomorrow will never come.

Tonight's Ramble....(7/9/00 2:37am)

Another night another odd call. I don't know what the fuck is on the go, every now and then I get a call from some woman, telling me her friends wants to go out with me, I ask who she is, she won't tell me. I ask who i'm talking to, she won't tell me. Last time I tried I wasn't the amazing Kreskin (70's mind reader or something along that line..) so i'm not going through this jesus mess of guessing shit. I first thought it was a friend of mine living in Calgary for the summer, so I was talking like I would to her..then I realized "hey wait...this isn't her"...yada yada yada...started to think of all the women I know and what they sound like, started to eliminate them from the way they talk, funny habits while on the phone, laughs, etc. No dice. So as of now...I don't have a sweet fucking clue who it was...oh well.

oooh the matrix..got my movie to watch for now...Dances With Wolves will be for after if I am still awake.

SO...i'm addicted to Big Brother...the tv show that has 10 people living in a house together...just seems like something I'd enjoy doing...sure stick me in a house with 10 other people...damn that Jamie missus is hot :)....

Oh yeah...just for a laugh for those of us who were there...Ian for one...remember bowfinger? when the phone rang? and "someone"(tanya) picked up her phone thinking it was ringing? I almost did the same thing just then...I can' say I am cokeless and not thinking right though..heh

Thanks you B, for the line about Rugman (Jamie) and the model like missus on Big Brother (also a Jamie):  "just equate tiara and poofy rug both Jamies have expensive head gear."

classic.....

YES!! I remember now...I started all this for the point of expressing my discontent with all this bullshit for endangered species...LET THEM FUCKIN DIE!!!!! Kill a few a put them in a museum. Put a pic on the net so you can see one. Millions and millions of species die REGARDLESS what we do. It is all arrogant meddling on our part with nature. We want to save the whales, save the dolphins, save the cure little things. What about all those mean, savage creatures out there? Do we really care if some rare breed of cockroach dies off? I don't think so.. Do we care if a breed of poisonous child eating snakes die off? No. We just want to save the things like find "cute". Goddamn selfish swine. They will be sad if something else dies. You unenlightened piece of dog shit. How many millions of species have died since hte beginning of time?? more than you'll ever know. I think it was like 70% or more of all life on earth lives in the sea. Now if we can't see these species, i'm sure people won't care about them. Why? Because they don't care about things they can see. If its too small to see, why bother save them...and how can we know if its saved. Enviromentalists are idiots...

Enviromentalists don't give a shit about the planet...They just want to have a clean place to live, they think someday they'll be inconvienced with something someday so they rant on about shit...trying to trick us all into helping clean up shit to help them get what they want. The planet is fine, don't fuckin whine about it. We have only been fucking it up for the last few thousand years. Only making a noticable difference in the last hundred or more years...besides we shouldn't be concerned we're polluting the planet. Why you ask? Think of the earth as your body. We are each a virus. I got a whole theory on humans being a virus..but thats a whole new rambling. Either way...we're a virus, the earth is a body. What happens when a virus gets in your body? The body fights it when it gets too bad or big. Natural methods...such as "natural disasters". Think about that...the earth is just getting rid of some nuisances. All those idiots living in Hawaii with the volcanoes right in the backyard. These dumb motherfuckers deserve to die. When the volcano does decide to shoot its load over the land, what happens? this fools wonder "why this happened" BECAUSE YOU IDIOTS BUILT A HOME NEXT TO A VOLCANO. Gawd, some people are just stupid.

Like all those morons who believe everything spilled out on CNN, ABC and Newsweek...They don't report things the government...The USA helps certain countries fight against the rebel groups that are fighting the ruling government. What do we see? The images of bloodshed showing people dead in the streets, whether or not they are innocent bystanders or are they the rebels? Crooked governments have rebels fighting them, however the government is buddy buddy with the USA, so what happens? The USA send guns, or guns and troops to fight the rebels. So the Rebels are shown in a negative light, regardless what he truth is. But if the government isn't buddy buddy with the USA government, the rebels are considered Freedom Fighters...which tends to make you think they are the "good guys" Cheer for the Freedom Fighters RAH RAH RAH!!! GO GO GO!! YEAAAAAAH FREEDOM FIGHTERS!!!

Lord fuck...I can't believe people can accept this shit that gets shoved down their throats. I don't vote. I can't stand to think that i've been a part of the shit that goes on here, let alone on a higher level. I am not American ....good thing ....cuz i'd become an unibomber or shit.

Yes I don't vote...don't give me the shit about "you're not helping make a change, you're just wasting a vote" Get your head out of your ass... Micheal Muir once said that "the more it changes, the more it stays the same. First it was Reagan, now it's Clinton. There isn't a difference." I wholeheartedly agree with that. The same goes on a smaller scale...here in town the same thing is true. No one wants to give up a good thing. You'd be insane to. Politics requires you to become a fat assed liar if you want to make your way to the top. LIE LIE LIE!! THEY'LL NEVER REMEMBER ALL MY LIES AND FALSE PROMISES!!
I'll just silence those that remember my lies..err promises. Mumai Abu Jamal...

Back in 91' the US Senate passed a bill numbered 5422, that gave ex-CIA director George "Al Capone" Bush the power to do any covert operation he wants anywhere in the world and not tell anyone he has done it. He can use the CIA, the army, and the national guard in the states for covert operations and take money from AIDS research, etc etc. and not tell anyone about it. Someone tell me again, when was that Waco Texas incident? Makes you think huh? Were those Branch Dividines (sp?) really as evil as the news put em up as. Was the leader, David Caresh (sp?) really the madman the news...CNN remember..put him up as? Probably not...just that it could be George Bush was pissed cuz the Waco thing got more press than ole George, so he decided to send in the troops and fuck them all up.

Remember Desert Storm? Old George Bush again...makes ya wonder how much stock Bush has in oil stocks. How would they be affected if the prices of oil went down...so lets send the Iraq's into Kuwait. And how cares about the bodycount as long as old george gets what he wants...more profitable stocks and more money. President sends in the troops to make him look good and make more money.

So once again...freedom fighters are usually looked on as a good thing right? Just read this line and think about it first... if fire fighters fight fires...crime fighters fight crime...what do freedom fighters fight?

Check to see what the status is with that country and the USA...the world police...You never hear rebels groups called freedom fighters if the country is friends with the USA. Because they are trying to overthrow the USA placed governments that export all the good of that country to the motherland..the USA (U Serve Assholes)...however, if they are not buddy buddy with the USA, then the USA government can be heard saying "Lets get them fucking <insert racist term here>!! Give the guns to the rebels who will follow our orders and shit when we say so."

Freedom fighters...pathetic.

Next time there is a election around here...if i'm here, or regardless where I am...the next time I see some swinemonger out trying to get votes, I think i'm going to follow him and when the person comes to the door I'll yell out "that's the guy who raped me and got his goons to beat me after he finished ass poking me!" don't vote for that rapist.

Childish? Sure...but then again isn't politics? Its that or run for mayor myself. Slogan? I thought a little of it..."i'm the lesser of <insert number here> evils", "Vote for me, i'm not a crook.", "Vote for me and get these shitheads out of office", or "Vote for me, i'll tell you what is going on...and how much this fuckers are getting paid."

I think i'd get some votes :)

Anyways...while I debate and find out when the next election is, its 4am so I might as well get soem sleep..early day tomorrow..in comparison with the last few weeks.
 

Bridathdaty eramble......(late nite time)

so i', durnkg and i got a nbumbner from someoene...call herr tomororw. I got durnk by some good fruiends. tanks boys...the good drubk is the weekenmd in si n city. if i find my way there...good old buds in sin city waitign to see the chopped hair and get drunk with us. fuck it i'm gettogn csome more cake ..b'day ccake, chocoagelate cake.

nooge to the fuckin googe!!!!!!!
 

Tonight's ramble: (2:10am)
    So the ramble has lost its "blackie" part...wonder why? Cuz no one else rambles on this page, so you should know who is going to ramble here...makes sense huh? Anyways, i'm full of piss and coke, earlier it was just coke. Korn Egos and Icons...damn I must be bored. Don't get me wrong, Korn is a pretty good band, but they are getting too trendy. One of the members of the band said on this show "when we become trendy and parents like it is when we change". Really? Funny, after seeing the video (I don't remember the name of the song) with the child abuse #, a friends mother was pleased with them for actually speaking out on something, not just making money, and becoming junkies. I had a luagh with some friends that when they heard "Shoots and Ladders" and "Clown" they were putting Korn down and taking shit...now after the big two albums....they love them. Hypocrites. Still they have their good songs. Now why the fuck did I start this ramble?? Jezus, talk about bored, I started this for something to do..sleep doesn't happen this early. OH YEAH!! I remember...BMW!! I saw an ad for a '88 BMW. Gawd I'd love to have that...Wonder if the parents can be conned into that one :) I'd have to be a good little boy....I see at least 3 things wrong with that: 1) good.....heheh yeah right. 2) little...I'm the tallest one here. 3) boy? Not quite...haven't been a "boy" for about 10 years. Childhood is long forgotten.
    Either way, a BMW would be amazing, It could be lime colour....hmm ok not lime....and I wouldn't care. I think it had 160K km's on it..but who cares. Not like it'd be a family car, if it dies...oh well. Like I have somewhere to be or shit...hence writing a rambling at 2:35am... Wish I had the money to buy a friends Ford Probe about 6 months ago. Two friends have had Probes and sold em, and me without money...no shock there. Right now I am licenseless (old man would never give up the keys to his new car). I need to get a job..if I can get up before 3pm and get some money to get a car...and in the process get a woman. After all a lot women want a guy with mainly two things...1) Money (to waste on them, you EVER see a woman turn down a gift? didn't think so...) and 2) a car. To cart their asses around as if they were Cleopatra on that litter thing she was carried around on. Don't believe me? Take a look at your friends and think about it.
    Some of you may be saying "Hey Rio, you forgot the compliments part." I didn't forget it, women are savages for compliments, I just took for granted everyone understood that. People's egos are large enough now, I don't care to compliment everyone on the littlest thing "Oh wow, <name> you dressed yourself today, amazing!!" or "Golly gee <name>, you look good today". Why don't I compliment people? Because it becomes required then. When I mention to <name> that her dress is very nice and shows off her excellent legs quite well, and that her hair looks really hot like that and....errr um, ok lets stay on topic...when I mention whatever, there is an expectation for the next time. If she is dressed up and I comment on it, then the next time when I don't notice or decide not to comment, any good graces I have built up is smashed and swept away. I rather stay on the bottom floor than to have my worth piled up only to fall from grace. The higher you climb, the further the fall. Words of wisdom.
    So some people think i'm just bitter by this point...isn't everyone? don't answer no, cuz you're lying. I am bitter I admit it, not because of not complimenting people. Everyone has something to be bitter about. If you think you don't...Get your bloody head out of the clouds, look around and take off them rosey red glasses first. Life is not perfect, you don't always get want you want...If it was i'd have a BMW and a hot blonde woman in the bed or maybe 2?...and I wouldn't be writing this at 3am in the morning. So when life deals you a pile of shit, don't complain "I don't want this", "I don't deserve this", "why me?", "blah blah blah", etc...FUCK YOU. Whiny fuckin maggots (Cracker would agree with me). And besides if you think the your world is perfect you'll end up needing a shrink, if you need help finding one, I can be hired out as one...I am not licensed or shit, but I am fairly good I've been told. Or if you want "professional" help, a good bud is working on his masters in Psychology, so I'll arrange an appointment :)
    I know i'm rambling more than usual, but I wouldn't mind being a shrink. I enjoy helping people sort out there shit. But I can't stand all the shit you have to go through in any degree, shit that isn't related to what you want to do..I could write for a day my beefs about the English degree I just finished...but alas, cutbacks, old school philosophies, etc etc. Variety is the spice of life? Not in some universities...
    Hmm...I've been thinking and writing for almost an hour now...and I'm not sure if the BMW thing was why I started this. The idiot box is off now, I feel my mind recovering. Boredom forces one to kill as many brain cells as possible sometimes. Lord of The Rings keeps peering into my sight...do I want to even start that again...never did finish it
    Speaking of reading, if anyone reading this far...not bloody likely...is looking for something good to read, check out anything by Hunter S Thompson. "Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas", "Hell's Angels", "The Generation of Swine", etc. "The Proud Highway" is not something I'd recommend for rookie HST readers. It is letters he wrote before "making it". Its good if you want to get to know him, however some of the letters are a bit dragged on. Seems to be writing to maintain contact more than having something to say. Sort of like this ramble??

FUCK YOU!! I'M FED UP WITH YOU! I'M NOT AS GOOD AS YOU, IN FACT I'M BETTER THAN YOU!!

-- now that the Korn fix is over...back to rambling..

3:30am...it took me almost 30 minutes to shave...well shit. This is the least amount of hair I've had since probably grade 8. No facial hair at all now, and my hair..as the pics on the main page will show..is VERY short...as compared to what its been for ages.

hmm..unsalted peanuts and water...what the hell? Thats almost healthy...I do believe Blackie is dead. May he rot in hell...or soar to new unknown heights in heaven.

"They call it PMS because Mad Cow Disease was already taken." ....priceless

So this ramble has spawned into 3 or more rambles...of well...its 3:52am and i'm still going, minus the shave break, which was just a piss break first, but I decided to kill the goatee.

... ... ... ... i'm sorta in shock that I rambled on so long. Oh well time to try and finish a novel and then get some sleep. Tomorrow will soon become today at "dawn's early light" sounds like a title for a poem. Hmm...maybe later.

Lata...

Blackie's durnk ramblign (now: a.m.)

    so her ei am pantsless and fairly drunk. i wanna wok on the page for some reason. i must be durnk i bought a bottle of water and hav ethe stanley cup...where are my pants...x-files anmd water is my night now. I saw someone i never expected to see again, the beast from the east. she was there along with the piece from the east...heheh.

you're in a bar...and then it happens, you're surround ed by 5 ninjas...you think how can i make this into a party...NOT by clamato. BoooooOZEEEEEEE!!

IA M THE AMERICAN JESUS!~

by the way...i have the stanyley cup..i drank form it tonight at the bar...where are my socks too. SOCK bandits!!!!!! why the hell am i drinking dasani ..dasani. water? did i buty it? POLICE TRUCKL!!!!!! deadk ennedys. "tonits the nite we got the truck, we';ll beat up drunks"
hmm...note..."some woman callled you tonite...wanted to know when yo'ud be home"
oh shit.i hope that wasn;t her...her being the name i dont rememberer. eeep. fuck tti i'm getitng a movei.

hey ia was rambling...i found my pants. that was 39 minuters s abgo. now its dead kennedys and water.

happy birthday Sweater! i knwo i missed the acutal day but i'm slakce :) peeeewwwwwwze forgive me

i foudn my movies...monthy pyhtons or HST..hmhmh. holy grail it is...

THERE"LL ALWAYS BE A MOON OVER MARIN!!!!!!!!!!!!

TIS BUT A SCRASTCH...phytons here i caome...rambling over.

TYHERE IS MORE!!! the ramble will not die......THE BLAKC KNIGHT SCENE. I NEARLY PISSED MYSELF THE FIRST TIME I EVER SAW THIS. PHYTON RULES. "TIS BUT A SCRATCH!" i SCARATCH!?! YERARMS OFF!! NO IT ISN'T...WELL WHATS THAT (POINTIGN TO ARM)...I'VE HAD WORSE...YOU LIEAR.

and Gladiator is worth every last cent...wooo no mistakes.

I"LL BIT EYER LEGS OFF!!!!!!!

And the time is at hand, do i turn to the darkside in the name of good, or do i stand against the dakrs of the world and side with the sidfe  of good. sunday will tell. I am he who is thought to be the darkest soul. heheh, the truth could not be farther from this.

opne poet once wrote "within the darkest of dark, resides the birghtest of bright."

ugh...mcdonalds coming back on me.

thats it peepzzzzz...
 

Blackie's Return to the Rambling business (5/10/00 - 3:00am)

    I have returned...The darkness has come, so it means my arrival. Well I sleep most of the day and then i'm pretty much incoherent until the sun begins to go down. Since I have taken to the old night owl sleeping patterns. It was 7am before I go to bed over the last week or so. For many different reasons. Booze has been a big factor in there. Such was the case saturday night, at a going away party for a friend until who knows when, got home, turned the TV on and saw "National Lampoon's Animal House" on, so in my drunken state I lost it and watched it. After it was over I could not sleep so I stayed up til about 7am. Then I was bored so I went to bed. Anyways, a friend of mine mentioned he was working on his webpage tonight and I decided since I had nothing else to do I'd fiddle with mine. Granted I haven't got much done tonight but I have tasted the webpage creation again. Is it a one night fix or is it to be an addiction again? Only time will tell I guess....I've been trying to do some writing and been trying to finish/start several novels lately, so I can say one way or another. my coke intake has been limited today so I may call it a night early...3:30am is early...

Blackie's Most Recent Ramble (well until I do a new one - 3/2/00 1:40am)

    Well as I sit here and NOT study for my Astronomy midterm tomorrow...in 10 hours or so...all I can do is listen to Greg Graffin's "American Lesion" ...its pretty much Folk Music, ...damn good all the same.
Now what the fuck was I going to ramble about....hmmm....OH YEAH!! An older friend called me about 11pm tonight and asked how I was doing, when I mentioned by lack of motivation and the like, he went off on some speech about teenagers and people younger than him in general (thats where I come in) as being lazy and expecting everything to be easy. I can only be reminded of a Simpsons line where Bart says "We need another Vietnam, to thin out their ranks a little". I think thats what we need. I don't want to support war or whatever people will whine about. Just think about it, what better way to rid your country of the lazy, useless people....send em off to war to be cannon fodder for those that will get the job done. So lets see if Saddam will decide to push the "fuck you" button and piss off the world police, that being the United States in case you're unwise to world politics. UN my ass, If the USA wants to blow the fuck out of Iraq, they will and then cover their tracks by saying "Iraq said our men have little dicks and the women have small tits." And whats worse is....the UN would not say anything about it. The USA would not be in any trouble over it. Who judges the judge?? There is no country powerful enough to say "Fuck you, America. you've acted with your dick for the last time, get lost you're not in the UN anymore." The next day America wages war on whoever got the balls to kick them out....and when they destroy that country they simply ask "who's next in line to die?"
    Fuck that...as I was saying, War. As cruel as it is, war is fun. War gets ratings on TV, war lets people kill without any repercussions (assuming its the enemy), war unites people. Perhaps America should take all their prisoners on death row and shit and give them guns and little tracking things (and don't tell them that part) and drop em off in Iraq...."You can come back to America and be a free man if you can kill Saddam....good luck Captain Jim." (captain Jim right Jason? :) )
    Remember the gulf war? I bet you do. Those pictures of the missles impacting with targets, the reporters with explosions lighting the sky up in the far background, the pictures of the aftermath, etc etc.
I bet you remember where you were when it all started. I do, I was writing a paper and the TV happened to be on and a "special report" came on and told what was happening and showed the first pictures of shit being blown up. The next day in class even some teachers were talking about it...I think it was grade 10, or maybe 11. Either way...Graphic images, burned permamently into the mind's eye. Imagine being in one...none of this pansy ass bombing runs and shit where there is no real threat, get into the old school face to face fire fights, being so close to a person that when you their brains out their last breath is blown in your face. To see the look of horror on a person's face when they come to the grim reality...they are dead. Now some people will disagree with me here, but i'd like to get into a war and be able to kill someone and risk dying for a cause. Don't get me wrong, I don't see sending 1000000000000 troops into some country to set things "right" as a war. The gulf war, wasn't much of a war, it was Iraw trying to claim Kuwait, therefore taking a large oil country....Americans didn't like the idea of huge oil price hikes, so they caused shit. I mean a war where country A decides to fuck up country B. Even better if country B is my country, then I got motivation. Killing in war is like speeding on the Autobahn (spelled right?), no one cares unless you're going the wrong way.

maybe i'll continue this later...maybe not....I gotta start studying I guess, granted Sey probably hasn't started yet...if at all :)
 

Blackie's Rambling Fest Continues (2/25/00...still)

    This is a little thing I can "People of Praise" It'll probably be a bit short for now, but its just a few I thought about tonight. So here goes....

Dr. Jack Kevorikan (sp?) aka DR. Death
    No shit. Dr. Jack is a great man in my eyes. The man is ancient...60-80 or whatever. and he has the fuckin "grapes" to go and help people kill themselves. He is not helping depressed people whacked themselves, but people that are terminally ill and the prolonged lives they live due to modern medicine isn't worthwhile. Jezus, if I was laid up in a fuckin bed waiting to die, i'd want someone to put a fucking pillow to my face and smother me, or put a fuckin bullet in my head. But them the religious types will say someone helping me to die, is killing me...even if I do the injection or whatever and kill myself...and then again suicide is against the law (however i'm sure there isn't too many people that get charged with that) Fucking bleed heart liberals and their pro life shit. Dr. Death deserves a fuckin medal, or at least a "hero bic" for his efforts.

That Coach from Columbine High School. (Dave Sanders I think his name is???)
    This guy has all my respect. Too bad he is dead. I watched the ESPY's sometime over the last 2-3 weeks because I saw Mario Lemieux there and was wondering if he was going to win something...which he did...WOOHOO!! Anyways...they had a special thing for Dave Sanders, in which they had his family and former students talking about him. The fact that he was risking his life to save a large number of students from the whiny little columbine killers...one of the fuckers had a jesus BMW or similar kick ass car..."oh my mommy and daddy don't love me, i'm a social misfit, i'm going to kill all my school" To quote Denis Leary "whiny fuckin maggots". Anyways, one of those misfits popped this guy. But how many people did he save before he got killed? A fuckin lot. Cudos Coach guy. You deserved better, but "you can't always get what you want" (thanks Mick :) ). What greater sacrifice can there be than self sacrifice??

The Great One, Wayne Gretzky #99
    Total class act. I don't know where to start with him. There is nothing I can think of bad to say about him. Great hockey player. Great role model for kids...no drugs, not racist like certain baseball players (Rocker) or baseball owners (Marge Schott), not like some football players, big ass drug addicts, hasn't been charged with killing anyone or spousal abuse. He's a great guy...I think I don't even need to continue this one...if you don't know about Gretzky and how great he is (besides a great hockey player), then i'm wasting your time.

Etc, etc, etc, etc, etc...lots of great people worth praise, too little time.

Blackie's Continued TV Rambling (2/25/00)

    Just when I couldn't be any more disgusted with the human race, I am revolted to see the rubbish that FOX is playing tonight. "World's worse programs" or something...things blowing up, such as big rigs, oil trucks, cars and trucks of all sorts. Police chases, police arresting people (mainly minorities of course), and all things devoid of any intelligence. I once said to Cracker...after one of his rants about how "great" football is...."If I want to see black men running, i'll watch cops." Sure it was a stereotypical thing to say coming from a white male ages 18-34, but I only said it to annoy Cracker by comparing football to "Cops" After thinking about it, Cops must be produced by the fucking KKK or some other white supremcy group. All the people being chased/arrested/shot at are all black, or some other minority. So basically TV has reached new lows.

Think about it...how many hours a day do you sit in front of the idiot box and become mindless morons, drooling for the next sitcom to spit out the drivel of the moment. When Seinfeld was ending "Time" magazine did an article on "What will we do without Seinfeld" Half the fucking world could be dying and the american public is more concerned with surviving in the post-Seinfeld era. Gawd. Back to the time wasted on TV....ever click through the channels looking for something and after going through them all, you can't remember what the fuck you were looking for???

How much can we take as a comsuming public?? How many times can we stand to listen to Seinfeld whine about stupid shit, how many times can we watch "pro" wrestling and watch someone beat up the boss (the american dream, for all the low life rednecks I guess...no wondering they got the ratings). How many times can we stand to see someone get beat up on Jerry Springer and listen to the brainless audience chant "JERRY JERRY JERRY!!" like a pack of baboons. Finally, How many times can we be amused by Kenny's death, and the "Oh my God they killed Kenny. You Bastards!!" line. I read in a magazine that South Park is coming to an end after this or the next season. Good. If they overmilked that show, it'd end up...dare I say it...like the Simpsons. Overdone. Can you name a good episode of Simpsons in the last couple seasons??....didn't think so...

So, my message is...KILL YOUR GOD, KILL YOUR TV!!! (I owe Marilyn Manson for that one) I've turned to watching my old movies...Hell, I haven't seen Monty Python and The Quest for The Holy Grail in ages...watching it now. Saw the Black Knight scene and LOST IT!!! I never laughed that much in ages. I think a Pink Panther binge is long overdue :)

Anyways my point is...thats rich huh? I do these for a message now...somewhat, don't worry this won't be a common occurance.....anyways..the point is: If you're one of the mindless that watch Dawson's creek, buddy the vampire slayer, wrestling, or nameless other shit programs for some teenager/20-something cleavage...get help. Your willingness to join the brainless masses is appalling to me.
That is pretty bad too, seeing i'm quite apathetic 99.9% of the time.

Blackie's Evening Rambling (2/23/00 - 8:24pm)

    Well I suppose this is how things go, all in accordance to random chance or perhaps there is some greater force playing puppet master with us. Just when i'm debating taking a shovel or sledgehammer to my television someone calls me yelling "MAN! Turn on channel 33, there is a Kid Rock Spotloght on Much!" (insert heavy sarcasm here) "OH JOYOUS DAY!! MY LIFE NOW HAS MEANING" Luckily he had to get off the phone because apparently holding on to a phone and watching television is just too much for people to handle. And so begins my rambling about television. Try and name a worthwhile show...didn't think you could do it. Some people may say that Discovery has lots of educational, worthwhile shows. I agree, they do have many good shows, such as the special that I saw last year on the "Sawtooth Pack" of wolves that live in North Dakota (I think...it seems to be that state, but I may be wrong). But even that has been repeated several times now, and it now that I haven't seen it in a while it seems that it does not come on anymore. I can watch hours and hours of mind numbing Seinfeld, 3rd Rock From the Sun, Ally McBeal, Dawson's Creek and all the teenage garbage they shovel down the unsuspecting teenager throats. Even CNN has lost my interest, news isn't news anymore, its a plea for pity, for sympathy, for ratings. The almighty ratings. Either I am a total moron or someone is pulling my prick. A couple have a child. One of the couple dies. So I'd only assume that the other surviving parent is responsible for the child. SO WHAT THE FUCK IS THE PROBLEM WITH THAT CUBAN BOY?? Send him home to his father. The american press is making it look like the child is americans responsibility and that Cuba is Hell or something. What gives them the right to decide what happens to this child. ANYWAYS, before i get off topic...if its not too late...All I saw today while surfing through the channels (i'll get to that too) was Marty McSorley's hit and Election USA rubbish. I have 67 or so channels and the bottom feeder trash that is on there is horrible. A dirty load of french channels 4 or 5 I think, the vision channel (or as friends call it "the packie channel"), a commerical channel - like commericals aren't bad enough during a show, a TV guide channel - I guess some genius thought this up when he broke his hand clicking through channels to find something worthwhile to watch. 2 channels dedicated to GOLF! Granted its the same thing, just on two different stations for some reason, a Canadian PARLIMENTARY CHANNELL!!!! who was the monkey that ok'ed that!?!?! Must have great ratings...gawd. Oh yes...the Home Shopping Channel. How I despise this one. Lets see...Holy jezus...a "Deluxe Blopen Craft Kit" What the hell is that?!?!!? $39.99, marked down by $11.41...granted there is a $7 S&H charge, and ALLEGDEDLY there has been 870 sold...it was 862 when I turned it on. 873 now. How many shut-in's, retired, retarded people order this shit. anyways further up the "dial". Some native channel, The "Treehouse" channel...preschool garbage. But then again, what better way for mothers to placate their children by letting them watch the teletubbys, Barney, or whatever. Ah, the first step to becoming a columbine killer. Well well well....I've been placated. "Who Wants to be a Millionaire" is on. I don't think thats the same though. This is a trivia game show, not some sitcom which deals with nothing...Watch Seinfeld sometime and try to figure out why in the world he got that show. Television is the drug of a deprived generation. Tune in and tune out. Tune in to the all the new shows and trash, and tune out from some stimulating activity. Read a book, do something creative, don't just sit there and drool over a television screen.
  Needless to say, television is a mind numbing drug. How many times have you done this: clicked through the channels over and over until you found something that you didn't want to watch, but it remotely interested you, then you waited until something worth while came on?? Ugh...now while doing this and eating some buttery popcorn I got a layer of buttery crud on the top of my mouth. Well thats it for the rambling.
 

Blackie's Half Awake Stupor/Rambling (2/21/00 - 11:55am)

    Well well well....just when I thought life couldn't get any stranger...it proves to me that it can. I was up until probably 8am this morning...the old man was up when I went to bed. if you noticed the time of this ramble you'll see that i'm not working with a sound mind...if I ever was ;) So he goes to get the mail and comes to my door and says "Are you awake?" in a normal voice, so if i'm awake i'll answer and he'll toss me the mail...and for some reason after only ~3.5 hours of sleep I am...so he tosses the mail in to me. Cool...its a box, I'm expecting a few packages from overseas. Livonia it the postage mark on it, sounds like Europe, so I figure its the package I got coming from there. Excellent...or so I thought. It's at this point you should remember who is typing up this rambling and reread the first line of this ramble. So i'll get to the heart of the matter...after opening the box up, there is another box, I think "Ok, so this person didn't want the stuff to get beat up...alright." <get ready for the confusion> So I take the box out of the box...and low and behold!!!...(if your offended by this next line...no apologies) a box for a box. In my sleep depraved state, I just open the box and realize...either this is a box for a box or its full a thin cigars wrapped in Tampax wrappings. So I just look at it and in the sleepless state and wonder who the hell sent that. Livonia was the postage mark on it. What the hell is that some small country in the middle of Europe? As you can probably guess i'm still half asleep and might find it funny if I were fully awake. Granted the box said "free things inside" or something like that...so I have no idea whats on the go there. Anyways I think some sleep is in order. Must get ZzZzZz....
 

Blackie's Return to this Rambling Bizness (2/13/00 - 1:22am )

    So...after much putting it off, I redid the webpage, with a little help from Justin and Seymour..thanks guys, for setting that frame thing up for me. And after many a threat from some nursing type person, :P i've added some stuff and got some ramblings in the works. I even got this all done in time for Valentine's day..there is a little treat for ye all on the main page. There is still much work to do and little time to do the work needed. My caffeine energy is dying off, so it'll be nappy time for Rio soon. I might decide to add a "written works" section to this page eventually. To throw some things i've wrote, scribbled down, and typed. Little tidbits I write in class make up a lot of this things. Full fledged poems or short stories have been few and far between as of late, no motivation. I just want to get the period from now 1:23am until about May 10th over with..and get this bloody degree and start some serious writing. So due to a little mental breakdown I've renamed the webpage fallen.angel.landed.at.napalm.net guess I got hit with napalm and it burned my wings and I fell to earth...I can't remember anymore :) So to give you a little preview of the coming ramblings:

-people of praise
-people
-TV
-hypocrites and "God"
-women
-D's....yes D's...as in the letter

Blackie's Early Morning Ramble (1/3/00)

    So after an odd night, I realized something...I need a woman. While most single guys are argeeing with me, for "ms. right now" ...though that would be good now too :)...I mean a lasting relationship. All the guys who got a woman have good marks in their courses...its not chance, its true...a lot of the guys said they know more people like it too. Maybe that'll be my new years resolution :) Get a woman before I fail out..heheh, granted certain "motivational skills" are on the side of women rather than men. They get that benefit, we can stand up and pee...think we got robbed there. One more semester to do or i'm not finishing it...just had way too much to suffer through more shit there.
    However, the downside is this...college kills brain cells. Yes it does. You go to college, you begin to drink more, you drink even more, spend late nights writing papers (never mind sleeping), pass in the paper, then get drunk. It is even worse for exams. nor though...its time for lots of coke...could use some cocaine now...and some mario kart.

Blackie's New Years Ramble (1/2/00) (no y2k problem here)

    Well damn...it has come and gone. The Y2K bullshit. All the computers in the world did not explode or shit, millions of people did not withdraw all their money from their respective banks, massive religious freak outs, etc. Well I was planning on starting to pray for my many sins, but being quite loaded I forgot about it...it was something to amuse people anyways. No need for ask forgiveness when I've done nothing wrong...yeah yeah I can hear the laughter...damn jackels.
    I can't say that I was pleased the world never ended at midnight 12/31/00 (or 1/1/00 if you want to get picky...shithead). I mean, what the hell is the point of all this shit? after all someone once said "Life is an aimless drive that you take alone, might as well enjoy the ride, take the long way home". There is no motivation left in old Blackie anymore, it has been hard to even read the HST novel I got for xmas, so you know its bad... Xmas overall was nothing marvelous. Partying now and then with the old school crew, Cracker's party saw Rich, GI, and some others looking up "bad" webpages..gawd i'm mentally scarred from some of the stuff I saw...one of the crew got 20% in his 3000 level history course. Someone else needed 120% to pass his geography course...ah the scholars we are :) However, I understand some of the shitty marks I have seen in other and have got myself...just the methods of teaching by some people or whole departments are shit. Now people may say i'm not in a position to say what is good teaching and what is not. But, for those people I can only say: FUCK YOU, i'll say what I like about their methods. Too bad that some professors teach by old school methods, where they have their approach and do not veer from that path. Even those that have a fairly open classroom sometimes discourage radical approaches. I found that out in a paper I wrote this past semester...it seemed to me that I was within the idea of the paper, just taking the opposite approach that most would (while still being in the limits of the topic) ...meaning instead of praising the author's method and story, I shit on them saying it was typical writing of the time and it didn't deserve much praise because it just followed conventional methods that a blind, stoned, drunk, cripple, handless monkey could do. Well fuck em...I got the course done, mark sucked but most of mine do. One more semester then i'm outta that fucking place.

SWEET JESUS!!!! there is a PENGUINS GAME ON Ch. 50!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOO!! guess this ramble is just about over.

fuck its 2-0 for detroit over pittsburgh...rat bastards..

as I was saying, motivation has left me. However, New Years was pretty cool at GI's. Granted I can't remember have the stuff that happened or was said however here is a few things:

1. Wheeler: "Erin,(Shane's GF) is this big enough for you?" (I was in the can at the
    time so I never saw what it was he was asking her if it was big enough...but...)
2. Steve:  "CRY ME A RIVER!" (Cracker thinks I got it from Steve, but I started it)
3. Cracker: "Come on BDR, that wasn't a good comeback"
    I spray Cracker in the face and shirt with a beer. Also sprayed Ron for laughing :)
    Cracker: "That was a good comeback."
4. BDR: (upon seeing the legendary Hack-cack and Shannon) JEZUS CHRIST!!!!!!

well the rest I can't remember because it was blinded by booze.

Oh my gawd...Free Willy 3 is coming on TBS sometime this month...how fucking stupid does that whale have to be to get caught three times!!! I think I would have made him into seafood, glue, oil, or whatever it is they do with whales. Some movies need to just die off...never make the sequels: ie The Crow.

Snippy snippy...should I or should I not clip the hair? Got offered the cash again, but I dunno if I want to or not...ah decisions, I hate you. Though i'd be responsible for quite a few deaths, parents and some friends would die from shock seeing me with short hair. If I go to jail for murder there will be a bigger bodycount...etc etc. Can't go into details here..heheh.

Well shit...i'm listening to "Hell Rules - A Tribute to Black Sabbath" the song playing now is "Paranoid" by Debauchery...fucking death metal bands thinking the more they strip their throats the better they are. Jesus...

That's it folks...or ye few savages that want xmas stories and the like :)...you know who you are.

Blackie's Post Exam Ramble (12/17/99)

    Well fuck, EXAMS ARE DONE!!!! Gawd, it feels good to be done...though its only a 3 week break (roughly) and some of the boozin' friends are gone home...you know who you are, hell I gave one of ye the finger this morning on my way home :) He did the DX crotch chop thing...friggin wrestling freaks.
"FEAR AND LOATHING" and "WHERE THE BUFFALO ROAM" for the next 3 weeks, lots of caffeine and other shit. The crew who go to university in Sin John's will be back soon, let the Goldeneye battles begin...fuckin addicts they are..heh. ...Shit I need a coke... well its time to burn that jezus novel, get some coke, and watch "Where The Buffalo Roam". Fuck I wish I had a bottle of rum now..with some munchies...pizza would be nice. Well i'm rambling...isn't that the point of this page??...but fuck, (no you perverts not buttfuck) i'm close to a mental collapse. Maybe i'll end up like Hunter S. Thompson...i'd have to do LOTS of drugs to catch up with him. I SWEAR...any fuckers wake me up in the next week or so, they are fuckin DEAD. I don't give a shit if it is the pope calling to ask my opinion of religion, Bill Gates calling to offer me all his money and shit. They all will die. Or at least be added to my list of people that should be killed. Anyways, i'm fucking off...need coke and eats. I forgot to eat yesterday..YES forgot, as hard as that is for SOME people to understand. Just so much shit to do and no time? or just not hungry or whatever.

gone for coke....be back soon, keep checking the insanity.
 

Blackie's Exam Time Rambling (12/10/99)

    Well shit, 1 exam down 4 to go...sigh. Some of the binging is over, the paper writing weekend (well really the weekend and monday nite) is over...I think I had a mental breakdown over that time. I was watching "Fear and Loathing In Las Vegas" most of that time and drinking excessive amounts of coke. I don't remember much of that weekend...so if you got strange emails from me don't mind it. My mind was not right...not NEAR. I don't understand this...I have an exam on saturday afternoon, which means studying Friday nite...it can't be done. It's like getting trying to get me to dance. Or say tigers are better than wolves...HA...which reminds me..."someone" defiled my guestbook with a pic of tigers ;)
    However, there was a break from my insanity...even a night of relaxation. Oh how I miss those. N64 and Goldeneye...gotta tone the skills before the crew gets home for Xmas..must be nice to live in rez, drink beer everyday and play Goldeneye all the time...hmm, sounds like a plan..heh. I think over the xmas holiday i'll fix up the webpage...cuz it is unimpressive now, just thrown there, no real organization. Sort the sections, add more links, get some more images of WOLVES, etc, etc.
    Also, for Fat Tony...the reference in the "people that should be killed" section said that I don't have any RELATIVES in the "hired goon" business...you're a friend in the business. So, if you want to "set up a meeting" and "take them for a ride" by all means...

Thats it folks...last rambling of the year..unless I get motivated over xmas.
 

Blackie's Rambling: (11/12/99)

Well...its no longer a daily rambling...no longer a weekly or near-monthly rambling. Its just a rambling. Well it is midterm break and I am fuckin bored!!!! Never went to Sin Johns because I have a "Business Expense" to cover this week...few hundred dollars, so I am missing the boozathon :( Tonight there was suppose to a party...no dice...some people are fuckin wussy. Shit has changed...and as we all know changes are usually for the worse. So fuck it...its hockey (Penguins and Red Wings....Go Penguins!!) for tonight and wasting away...again. I can't force myself to do any work on a friday night...its just not me. Hell, I can't do work most nights. I am thinking about adding a poem section, quote section and sorting out the links into something that does not look so crappy. By the way, IF YOU'RE READING THIS, SIGN THE FUCKIN GUESTBOOK!! I didn't put it there so you could ignore it. But don't sign it more than once. I want to know what kind of people are reading the twisted thoughts of my mind....once I add that page :) "Blackie's Twisted Thoughts" hmm.... Well in the words of Scarface from "Half Baked" - "Fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, and fuck you...i'm out!"
 

Blackie's Near Monthly Rambling: (11/7/99)

Well after formatting and reinstalling things 1000 I realized my Corel WP8 cd is on the other side of the
bloody province. Yes province...i'm proud not to be a yankee. Granted there are some good americans, like the person who is responible for rio.napalm.net. and few others that I know and talk to regularly. However, all these idiots that blame musicians like Marilyn Manson or other band for these kids going out and killing a bunch of their peers and some teachers. BULLSHIT!! Those kids in Colorado didn't kill those dozen or so people because of the music they listened to and games they played (Doom and Quake type games). It was because largely due to the homes they came from. How can parents not know their kids are making bombs in the garage? Only if they are totally ignoring them, too busy with they careers and other things. One of those kids in Colorado had his own BMW...or was it a mercedes? They had to be well off, since he had a BMW, what do the parents drive? Parents don't want to take responsbility for their kids actions...i'm sure the parents of these kids probably agreed with whoever first brought up the idea that the music and games caused the kids to go out and kill their peers. If they had admitted they didn't care what their kids were doing, they didn't notice the signs that were there, they might have been sued by the families of those killed. And the first rule of most people is to protect their own ass. Had the parents gave them the attention they wanted they might not have turned out like this...I don't want to  sound like a church of jesus christ commerical, but still. The music and games didn't cause the kids to kill people. The lack of caring from the parents, the lack of interest from them also. "Problemed Teens" Why were they problemed? Isn't there a saying "It all starts at home"? I think that says enough.

HOW THE HELL DID I GET INTO THAT?? JESUS.

Back to what I was saying....now after having to format a couple times, i've gotten back to doing somethign with this webpage again...now that its moved from geocrappies (geocities) you don't have to suffer with those stupid popups everytime you open a new page. Fuck that was annoying. I've had a chance to move all the files, add some things, fix some things, it's nothing amazing. But who wants all this flashing crap you see on some webpages. Besides sometimes the best things are the simplest things :) Yes thats a good cover for my little html knowledge..heh. I've still got tons of things I want to add to this page, but alas I can only do so much at a time or i'll fuck it up somehow. And with this being my last year of college i've got an extreme workload...and the pile of work I should have done by now is getting larger daily. :[ Too many distractions I guess. It'll all come down to "crunch time" and i'll go on one wicked binge. So fuck this, back to editing the page.

And Microsoft has been found to be a monopoly....No shit! they american legal system is just realizing this?? wow what a shock... heh...you realize what IBM stands for? "I Blame Microsoft" heheh.
 

Blackie's Not-so Daily Rambling: (10/9/99)

Ok, I know...the daily part of this has lost its meaning. this more of a bi-weekly, monthly thing. Too bad, I got a mess of work to do...none of which I care to do though...but I haven't had time to work on this page..bizness and college. I enjoyed working on this page....no no, no need for those tears, I'll continue to work on this page...once I fail out of college ;)...as to quote someone i'm sure you know " 'MAGINE "
So since i'm dying from what I think is a second cold after nearly recovering from the first and the agony of having my first wisdom tooth YANKED!!...I sense a story for the kids approaching....and being in the fuckin' house ALL week, i've gotten to the point of updating this page.."run and gather the kiddies, Uncle Blackie got a story for the kids"...YA HAPPY NOW SHAWN!!!....

I call it:
"Blackie's date with Dr. Dentist of Death"

    Monday Oct.4th, little did I know my life would be changed forever. I head downtown for my dentist appointment, to see if i need to get a tooth...a wisdom tooth....pulled. (why are they called WISDOM teeth, if we get them pulled??? maybe this explains all the stupid people....) So after reading an outdated article on the new Star Wars movie...and the Space Nigga as Shawn believes....in an issue of Maclean's or something I toss it back on the pile of reject magazines on the table..which resembles something my grandparents owned. I spot a Sports Illustrated. So I snag it and sit back to read something about hockey.
After waiting and reading for about 40 minutes I get called in. Cool.
    After the bullshit greetings, the dentist asks "So what seems to be the problem?" I feel like saying "I've got this growth on my ass...could ya take a look?" but seeing he's gonna have the power to cause much pain in my mouth I pass on the remark..."I think one of my wisdom teeth have had enough of the scenery of my mouth and wants out..<grin>" He laughs, and gets the shit out to look. He then takes an x-ray of my mouth. After what seems to be an eon of looking at the wall, window and air conditioner..woohoo..he comes back in. "Looks like you'll have to get that tooth out, the nerve is decayed...he shows me the x-ray which looks like nothing to me....Just make another appointment and take these penicillin "religiously" <it's at this point, I smirk...religiously huh? Do I have to lose all my free will too??> "good Enough, thanks" and i'm gone to the desk to make an appointment.
    "Wedsnesday good?"
    "Sure"...i got a paper due for thursday but fuck it.
[skip to Wedsnesday]
    After only 20 minutes in the office re-reading the article on Star Wars, I get called into the room again.
In the chair, dentist comes out..jabs the needle in the gums...hands me a magazine and leaves for about 10 minutes. But before he leaves I ask:
"So how long will it take to yank this tooth?"
"Yank??? We don't yank teeth, we gently remove them" (Remember that...)
....uh huh....
    He's back....
    So he takes out the gear and starts to get a grip on the tooth. "You might hear some grinding and cracking...so think of being anywhere but here"
Hmmm....So many pleasing thoughts....THEN THE PAIN HITS
I'm thinking "HOLY FUCK MAN!! WHAT ARE YA DOING!!!" I hear this "SNAP" JEZUS!!
So by now he's going at the tooth like my head wasn't there!! My head is being tossed back and forth on the chair, i'm thinking "Listen fuckhead, do I look like your bitch? i'm gonna crack you if you don't stop tossing my head around"
    After the nurse or whatever she's called...no offense to those nursing types :)...sticks the hose thing in my mouth...to get all the BLOOD...he finally gets the fuckin tooth out.
    "Lucky to get it all out in one piece" he says...
    Yeah!!! because I woulda smacked him soon enough. (What happen to gently removing the tooth?)
    "You believe in the Tooth Fairy?"
    HOLY FUCK...what am I seven??
    "No man, unless its you"

So anyways I go out and PAY $64 for this treatment...gawd I musta been stoned, drunk or retarded. and bleed for the next few days...my garbage can was full of bloody spit and tissues...cuz i have a cold too :(

oh, and as a short story to go along with this...the other night while flaked out on my bed, I get up to go get a drink...forgetting the garbage can full of blood, snot and tissue....PLUNK!! dang...my foot goes right in the garbage can...foot soaked!!! Nice red and green sock :)

So thats it for Rambling...I think it's long enough for now...here's a line from a cool song. Later

"The road to Hell is full of good intentions. Say farewell. We may never meet again."

Blackie's Daily Rambling: (9/23/99)

Ok Fine....it's been over a month. But alas, all good things come to an end...well maybe not an "end", just a period of nothingness...In short, I'm back in college and have real work to do...whether or not I do that work is another thing...I rarely get enough sleep, so that kind of drags me down. People think i'm mean-spirited or whatever...nah, just never get any sleep. I was ok today, got an amazing 8-9 hours of sleep...most in eons...but it seems that'll be the last of that for a while.

So anyways, I've been told "UPDATE YOUR PAGE!!", "Add Uncle Blackie's Stories", "Add blah blah blah" and so on. I am gonna ("gonna" from an English major :) ) add all the links I can tonight...seeing i'm at work and don't want to read and english, psychology, etc. Well seeing how I am not an uncle, there will be no "uncle Blackie's stories" (sorry Shawn) just the links for tonights work...I got 4 hours to kill.

Blackie's Daily Rambling: (8/20/99)

Ok, thanks to Friday Nite Joe I decided to add a ramble for today. Its not a ramble of something that happened today or yesterday, but a week or two ago....so get the kids, its time for a story....

"Blackie's Encounter with the Religious Zealots"

I got home one day from a hard days work (believe it or not) and I had crashed on the bed..one of the guys phoned to say he was coming to pick up his hard drive that I fixed up for him. So I was lying down and hear a knock on the door, thinking "wow that was fast" I jumped up grabbing the hard drive. I got to the door and realized it wasn't the guy I expected...it was 2 guys, with dress shirts and tie. Thinking "damnit why do I ever answer the door?" I finished opening the door. Here's the conversation (well as best as I can remember it)

By the way, when this happened I had not shaved for a few days and had a decent goatee, and my hair was all messed up, so the whole time these guys were debating if they should hold a cross up to me to see if I'd flee.

RZ1 =  Religious Zealot 1
RZ2 =  Religious Zealot 2
Me   = try and guess :)

RZ1: Hi, i'm <insert name here>
RZ2: And i'm <insert different name here>
Me: Hey
<handshakes>
RZ1: We're with the Church of Moroms (or do they call it "jesus christ of latter days saints")
<insert deep sigh from me>
RZ1: We're going around door-to-door spreading the "good word"
(raised eyebrows when saying "good word"...like its better than everyone who says it)
RZ2: Did we wake you up, you look kind of tired?
Me: I was just lying down, just got off work.
RZ1: Oh, Where do you work?
Me: Here in town at Sir Wilfred Grenfell College.
<RZ1 and RZ2's eyes widen>
RZ2: Are you a professor??
<At this point my brain is kicked in and the monkeys are writing a plot...perhaps "Yes I am a professor of Religious Studies, but my students don't call me Doctor, just Rio....by the way, your religion is all wrong" But I decided not to test the "holiness" of these two, they might think I am Lucifer and see if I am affected by holy water or something....So....>
Me: No, I just work up there the summer with the computer department before I finish off my English degree.
<sort of a sigh from them...figured their plans of assimilating me were shot. Well they were, but they didn't know that...>
RZ1: Really? Plans on becoming a writer or something?
Me: Perhaps, or do something with computers.
RZ2: So do you practice any religion?
Me: Not really...no time for it.
RZ1: why's that? Everyone else has time.
Me: Well I work two jobs. (also freewill and a life)
RZ2: Well, do you have a particular faith
Me: Not really.
RZ1: Well perhaps you'd like to take a look at our bible here...<produce lame ass blue bible) and we can come back some time and talk to you about it.
Me: no man, its ok. Parents got one already.
RZ2: Have you had a chance to look at it?
Me: Nope.
RZ2: Have your parents?
Me: I don't know....<Nor do I care>
RZ1: Well when is a good time to come back and talk about this?
Me <Never??> Um, I don't know, I work all day, sometimes work with computers at night or go out, and weekends I am gone a lot too.
<Phone ringing>
Me: I gotta get that.
RZ2: Well it was nice meeting you.
RZ1: So long.
Me: Cya.

Close door and wonder why I didn't tell em to spread their propaganda somewhere else.

Blackie's Daily Rambling: (8/18/99)

Well the job is winding to an end...which means I'm going to be able to sleep in for the first time in eons!
I was screwing with this page today...added the pics page..I couldn't add some pics...fear for my well being if I did >:)...but other than listening to Garage Inc. and not "working" its been a semi-productive day for this page...sort of.

enough rambling, let gets rambling...I wanna watch Reservoir Dogs now. :)

Blackie's Daily Rambling: (8/17/99)

Ok, so daily rambling has become a semi-daily rambling. I didn't think I'd be able to do something each day. As it is today, I fixed up the Star Wars page...couldn't find the actual pic of the Star Wars logo ..the yellows letters one...but I got a good one..might add some more Star Wars pics later...and perhaps the camera pics from the parties :)...Stay tuned. And damn work is hard today...heh.

Blackie's Daily Rambling (Mid-Nite Edition): (8/14/99)
(no not Midnight...just mid-nite)

Now that my phone is unplugged and the other line is turned down too, I have some peace and quiet. All fucking day..RING RING RING...I loss count after call #12 or so. It seems people call me when i'm busy or relaxing, then when I am bored it's all too quiet. Go figure...

Anyways its time to waste the rest of the nite watching "The Road Warrior", maybe get some RW links here and some cool pics. I saw "The Matrix" again...that movie kicks ass...hell I saw it more than Star Wars.

Blackie's Daily Rambling (Early Morning Edition): (8/14/99)

Well its 3:15am...and after spending most of the night puking my guts up..and without drinking lots of alkiehaul..i got to working on this again, minor fixes seeing how I am a rookie right now. But I may pull an all-nighter and add some new shit. For those of ye that know about this page now..don't expect many additions this weekend..bizness to do and I just got the new WWF game for PSX.

Also after a chat with someone...I decided the daily rambling will be put in its own area, it may get too large for this page.

Blackie's Daily Rambling: (8/13/99)

damnit I'm too tired to do this today....

Blackie's Daily Rambling: (8/12/99)

  Well I'm still learning this shit. I haven't given up on this, so thats a good sign...right? After going through a good 25mb of pictures I have taken, downloaded, I think i've gotten it down to about 4 or 5 mb so far...maybe i'll take a break and sort through some more later and filter out the crap. Granted, if the crew comes by for a break, i'm gone and besides we're hitting Rottin' Ronnie's for lunch, "I'll have a McHeart Attack Please..." I need a fix...